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Thursday, 29 August 2013

Does God see me?

Does God see me? Does God see my brokenness? Does He care?

We are not great at seeing in the dark - my granny would despair at how terrible I am at it, and would no doubt shake her head and mutter: "I told you to eat more carrots".
But not only are we challenged at seeing in the physical darkness, but we are not always so great at seeing through our metaphorical darkness either. We struggle to see a way out of the things which trouble us most in life, and we so often end up enslaved and trapped in negative behavioural patterns which look vast and hopeless. Imagine if at the beginning of the problem before the spiral of decline began, we had shed a light on the situation and instead of fumbling around in the darkness we had tackled the problem, talked about it, and found our way out in the light of the day. Imagine how much more of life we would actually live.
Our inability to see in the darkness is not a characteristic we share with our God. The Bible tells us Jesus is the light of the world - He has no problem seeing through our darkness. He sees us when we are joyful and laughing through life, but he also sees us when we curl up into a ball in a dark room while our tears fall. He not only sees us... He is with us, loving us, crying with us, and sitting in the darkness encouraging us.

 'Jesus knows that self-harming, anorexic girl. And He really likes her...a lot. He loves her with all of His heart, and He provided on a cross a way to bring her home, not to religion, not to appearances, not even to fixing her behaviour, but to Him. He might tell her "I know...from before the world began I've known and I'm not ashamed, I'm not angry. And I will stay with you in the dirt.'

I once had the privilege of being a part of this realisation for a beautiful young woman who we will call Rachel. When I met Rachel she was struggling with an Eating Disorder and with believing that God noticed her or knew what she was going through. Her faith was slowly disintegrating and everything you saw on the outside was a brave mask which she put up to protect herself and those around her. Whilst in a Christian meeting God told me that I was to chat with Rachel and give her a book as a gift which would help her to see herself through God's eyes and not her own or that of the world. I was nervous because I didn't really know her, I wasn't sure if I was even right about what she was going through as we had never talked about it, and I was nervous about making myself vulnerable to someone who was basically a stranger. So I wrestled with God for a bit and finally gave in. When I went to speak to her and told her what I thought God had told me about her situation and what she needed, she was lost for words and so moved emotionally to realise that God HAD seen her, and responded. Little did I know but during that meeting there was a call to the front for people who felt that they needed prayer and healing from emotional, life controlling issues... during this Rachel had been sitting asking God that if He saw her and wanted her to respond, that He would have to do it in a different way for her because going to the front was not something she felt ready or bold enough to do - at that point she didn't even have a clear view of whether or not God even existed, never mind asking Him to heal her and walking to the front of a huge conference room of people. God's answer to Rachel was beautiful, and I was changed as a person because I had the chance to be a part of it. God had spoken to me and given me the strength to conquer my own fears, and had spoken straight into Rachel's life and situation. He had proven to her that He DOES see her, He DOES know her most difficult trials, and He DOES care.
Rachel and I now have a great relationship. God paired us up perfectly. Not only did He provide someone to encourage Rachel in this moment and season, but in choosing me to speak His love over her, He used someone who had the time to show His long-term love for her, and someone who had a real personal understanding of what she was going through (something she's never found in anyone before). In helping her, God helped me too. This means that not only did God see Rachel and her situation, but He saw me and mine.
He sees us all and He cares. Be in no doubt of this.

Jesus defeated the darkness and it flees from light. If you light a candle in a dark room, it is amazing to see the affect it has in lightening up the room (try it!) - that is simply a glimpse into how He can bring light to your darkness, and how when He does, you can too bring light into the darkness of others.
Do what Rachel did.
Ask God to show you that He sees you, invite Him to bring light into the darkest and most difficult parts of your life and heart. And wait on Him. He will answer you in a way that He knows will most reveal Himself in your personal circumstance, and if it is His will for your life, He will bring healing to you in His perfect timing.

There are also things you can do to daily choose to invite the light into the darkness.
  1. One of the things that I was once told to do which has massively helped and encouraged me, is to read some of the Psalms every night. Declaring truths over myself every evening before I sleep has changed the course of my thoughts for the next day, and having suggested Rachel too tried this, it has been wonderful to see her reep the benefits. In fact on those days which I forget to read them (and those days i will admit do sometimes happen!), I have noticed in reflection that the next day has been a more difficult one. 
  2. Memorising Bible verses which speak of how God sees us and what He thinks of us have been essential for me in walking a new life. I pray and speak these over myself when I'm in the shower in the morning, when I'm walking from one place to the next, and when I have thoughts which are not good or helpful, and are not of God. 

Claim control over your life. Choose to believe the truth and not the lies that bombard us from all sides. DAILY!

If you don't know where to start... read this daily. Even take one verse at a time.

My Child,

You may not know me, 
but I know everything about you. 
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. 
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways. 
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. 
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image. 
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring. 
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived. 
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation. 
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, 
for all your days are written in my book. 
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth 
and where you would live. 
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. 
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb. 
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born. 
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented 
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, 
but am the complete expression of love. 
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child 
and I am your Father. 
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. 
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father. 
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. 
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. 
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. 
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love. 
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless 
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing. 
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you. 
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession. 
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul. 
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. 
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, 
you will find me. 
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you 
the desires of your heart. 
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires. 
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you 
than you could possibly imagine. 
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager. 
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you 
in all your troubles. 
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, 
I am close to you. 
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, 
I have carried you close to my heart. 
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away 
every tear from your eyes. 
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain 
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you 
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. 
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being. 
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, 
not against you. 
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression 
of my love for you. 
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love. 
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, 
you receive me. 
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you 
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party 
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, 
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…
Will you be my child? 
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you. 
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God
Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications 
© 1999-2013

1 comment:

  1. Bex and I have just read this! Thankyou! We pray you are safe and doing well! X